In the summer of 2011 I reached my highest non-pregnant, a very embarrassing 180 plus pounds. I bounced around 180 – 185 depending on the day. I was ashamed of my body for the first time in my life. Most of my days were spent hidden under baggy clothes that I thought were hiding my lumpy figure. Looking back, I think I was trying to hide more than my body but myself too. I wasn’t happy very often. There were a lot of contributing factors … low self esteem, zero confidence, depression, social anxiety, stress from my marriage and family, but worse of all my weight was the biggest burden I was carrying. I let it hold me back from so, so much in the past few years.
And well, today, it’s a bit different, a bit better. I’m finally getting treatment for the anxiety and depression, I’m working on the social anxiety (not that well though) and my mood improvement has made our marriage/family life so much happier for everyone. The biggest change though has been with my body. I’m walking daily, I’m jogging (which i love) and I have the energy to keep going till bedtime. And … I’m shopping for smaller clothes. Well, I did shop and now they’re too big too so I have to get even smaller ones. <– not a complaint
Milestones I’ve Celebrated:
- losing 20 pounds
- dropping from a size 16 – 12 jean size
- dropping from an XL shirt to a large shirt
- dropping a “cup” size (not real thrilled with this one)
- I earned a FitBit lifetime distance of over 250 miles walked/jogged