March Journal – My Personal Battle with Mommy Fat

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Whew. I’m tired and energized all at the same time. Is that possible? It is when you walk 2 miles right before bed.

I find myself starting month 2 of my journey working twice as hard as I was last month. I don’t know if it’s because I’m feeling stronger or encouraged by last month’s 10 pound weight loss. Whatever the reason, I’m just thankful I’m still going. I’m the kind of person that will either succeed when I push myself or quit right before I know I’ll fail. Right now, I’m somewhere in the middle. Despite a rocky start this month I’m determined to keep my goals and make up for the ones I miss.


I don’t know where my energy came from this week but I’m really pushing hard to burn the calories and it’s making me feel awesome. My big accomplishment this week wasn’t weight loss, at least not yet, but I did do something I super proud of. I hit 15,000 steps in one day! Those 15,000 steps equalled out to 7.1 miles over 2,500 calories burned. I realize I sound like my own personal cheerleader here but …. GO ME!

fitbit 15000 steps


This week has been a roller coaster … emotionally. Spring begins the major bought of seasonal depression that I have to contend with every single day for weeks. My brain tells me .. you suck, go sleep some more, eat something fattening, you’re fat, you’re worthless … it’s what seems like a never-ending cycle of emotional struggle. I fight. Not with meds or even a therapist, although they’d both probably help tremendously, but I fight with myself. I tell myself I can lose weight, I can get out of bed and I can do this! It’s not easy and some days I lose that battle but not today. Today, I’m winning. I pushed myself harder than I ever have before and took my routine to the next level and started jogging. It hurt so bad at first but then I got into the zone of mind over matter and pushed through jogging an entire mile. I’m now up to over 5 miles today and I’m shooting for 20,000 steps with my beloved FitBit.


Today I hit a milestone … I jogged a solid mile without walking. It took me 13 mins 54 secs which isn’t great but it’s the first since the minivan accident that my leg bone didn’t start aching something terrible. Despite no weight loss this week, I’m proud of myself and still feeling very motivated to keep going. As of today I’m down 13.5 lbs from the day I started. That, for me, is worth celebrating.


I’m convinced now more than ever that what I’m doing is worth it, 100%. When I stepped on the scale this morning I saw 165. That’s now 15 lbs down from my original weight in February and almost halfway to my July goal of 140 lbs. I did more than I thought was possible this month …

  • hit the 15k step goal
  • hit the 20k step goal
  • jogged a few mile without stopping
  • ate great, lost weight

The best part, I never felt like I was starving myself. We got a digital kitchen scale so I can measure out proper 3 oz meat portion sizes, we experimented with new foods including the quinoa grain and found ways to eat dessert that wouldn’t make me feel guilty.

April Goals

1. Jog 1 mile every morning, walk 2 miles every evening.
2. I desperately want too see the 150’s on the scale by the end of the month.
3. Limit red meat to one meal per week.
4. Drink more water, a lot more.

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  1. says

    Congratulations on that first 15 pounds! Dieting is always such a roller coaster, but it sounds like you’re doing great! Keep it up!

    • says

      Thanks so much LeeAnn. It really does feel like a roller coaster sometimes but I’m so determined right now. I feel stronger and less sluggish, that alone is worth it for me.

  2. says

    I’m so proud of you Cat! I DO know what it’s like to struggle with the emotional and negative self talk and it IS a hard thing to maintain; It’s a battle every single day, but it’s also something that you, yourself, have to overcome no matter what and it sounds like you’re doing everything right! :)

    Just keep doing what you’re doing and forcing yourself to work towards those health goals and I have no doubt you’ll achieve what you’re aiming for in no time at all ^.^

    • says

      :) Thank you Kayla … anytime I’m feeling down, I’m gonna come back and read your little pep talk. It’s nice to have a cheerleader for success (well, outside of the one in my head) :P

  3. says

    I love your goals and looks to me like you are keeping right up with it! Great job Cat, keep moving forward and take one day at a time!! Hugs!

  4. says

    Wow – that’s great progress! You’re inspiring me to take small steps in being healthier – I can start with more water as well. I’m so glad that your getting great results and that it’s helping in so many ways. Congrats!

  5. says

    Amazing Cat! I know you are on the leader board in my group of Fitbit friends and I don’t see reaching you anytime soon. To see what you have done all month laid out hopefully energizes you this month. You have accomplished a lot.

    I need to set some goals like this. I know having the fitbit has made me walk more. Trying to reach my current goal of 10K a day did get me on the treadmill one day this week when I otherwise wouldn’t have thought too.