I will NOT mope, cry or hide in a closet eating cake by myself!

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I’m freaking out a little lot over here.

This month I’m turning … gulp … dare I even say it, let alone write it … 29  (+1).

I couldn’t do it, the number is too scary.

I know, I know, it (the ugly number I refuse to write) is still young, should I live to a ripe old age of 90, my life is only 1/3 of the way over. But damn, it’s an ugly number. I swear some days I still feel like I’m 21 or even 18, minus the few grays sprouting here and there and the crow’s feet emerging around my eyes.

I’m trying not to mourn the fact that my 20′s will no longer exist. It wasn’t a bad decade, I may not have been able to enjoy all the 20-something things that most did, like partying, clubbing or graduating college but I did get to spend that time with a man that loves me and works hard for our family. I got to raise three beautiful children that made life worth living. I was able to realize the dream of owning our own home, of going on vacations and growing up into an adult rather quickly.

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My head tells me to celebrate the years, even if they are becoming a distant memory. My heart tells me to smile as it’s grown more than I ever knew could be possible. But the mirror, that jerky mirror, it tells me “damn lady, you’re getting old.”

So I’ve decided to say to hell with this 30-something stuff and I’m just going to celebrate the years ahead with a 29 plus whatever number happens to follow.

I will not spend my birthday crying, being sad or eating hoards of cake in a closet. Well, probably not. And I’ve still got till the 31st to enjoy being 29.

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  1. Cheers to turning 30 Cat! :) I have spent my 20′s for the most part as you did. Minus one kid. But I bet there are more fabulous things waiting for you when you turn 31. ;)

  2. Mary Beth Elderton says:

    Happy Birthday! Embrace the 30′s–they re good years :)

  3. Happy early birthday! I hope the year of the 3-0 is one that brings you great success and joy!

  4. I kinda know how you feel +10 years. I’m turning 4-0 next month and slightly terrified.

  5. 30 really isn’t so bad – I promise! I turned 31 in August and the 30′s really feel pretty good. :)

  6. Karen Duchnowski says:

    Cat… I turn 40 this May! I believe all ages are meant for celebrating! Look at all the things you accomplished and learned. Another year better! I just graduated college in December, and yes some of the students were younger than my son (who turns 19 this month)! But I did it! I got my Associates degree! Be proud of your age and all you have done!!

  7. Carolyn G says:

    Look at it this way. At least you aren’t me. In a month I turn 49!! OMG next up 50! Gulp!

    You are so young and have some great years ahead of you. My thirties were the BEST!! Enjoy.

  8. I feel the SAME way. I turn 30 in November, and I spent my 20′s exactly as you did, with raising babies and taking care of my family. I DO plan on sitting in my closet and eating cake on my Birthday, but that is mostly because it is the quietest place in the house and I wont have to share my cake :P -Happy early Birthday!

  9. I didn’t handle that birthday well at all, at.all. But I did get through it. I have no idea now why it was a tough transition for me because the 30′s rock! So do you!

  10. enjoy the 30′s.
    I am 33 and love it. :)

  11. Cindy Brooks says:

    I loved turning 30! Somehow I felt more grown up and responsible (even though I was already married, 2 kids, and a real job). Embrace it! (and Happy Birthday!)

  12. For me it was worse when I turned 31. May sound strange but 30 didn’t bother me nearly as much as 31 did.

  13. 30 is not that bad trust me, I’ll be 32 this May. Honestly I don’t feel any older at 31 than I did at 21 :) You’ll see it’s going to be awesome! BTW happy early b-day!

  14. Oh gosh, you are YOUNG!

  15. I like the idea of 29+ a number. :) It’s a hard pill to swallow, but it comes no matter what. I was married young too (at 21) so I didn’t party in my 20′s. I think that’s a good thing. Happy almost Birthday!!

  16. 30 is young cat!! Happy Birthday :)

  17. Don’t you even worry about it… you are a beautiful woman and still look like you are 25 years old. You are right, embrace your twenties and look forward to being in your 30′s – you will love them, I did.
    Talk to me when you start getting close to the big 5-0 like I am, then we can sit in the closet with cake. But you’ll have to make it since. 1. you’ll be younger; and 2. you’re a better baker than I am.