Today I was having a little pity party, doubting my parenting skills, probably being a little emotional (thanks baby bean). I always do my best to make sure my kids are safe and accident free, as I’m sure most mother’s are. Today….we had an accident that was entirely my fault and I’ve been kicking myself for it. I’ve got a lot of “pregnancy brain” going on lately.
To my story….typical day, playing with my little girl. The phone rings and I get up to answer it and turn around to find Kaydence heading for the bathroom. Crap! I never forget to shut that door. Never. Today I did. Just as I round the corner to catch her I see my mistake. I left my razor on the edge of the bathtub. Double Crap! I never, never, never leave it out. I shave and then it goes to the top of the shower out of reach, but evidently not this time. Just as I shout, “noooooo“….she grabs a hold of it….yep….right on the blades. I quickly get it out of her hands to find she sliced her thumb and of course it’s a bleeder.
For some reason the dang thing wasn’t clotting and soaked through two dry baby wipes. So we moved onto the band aids after applying pressure wasn’t working. Have you ever tried to put a band aid on a one year old? Not fun. We ended up going through 5 band aids…the ones that did manage to make it on her thumb got chewed off within seconds. I finally resorted to wrapping her entire thumb in gauze and a good coating of medical tape. Twenty minutes later she chewed it off….luckily the bleeding had stopped. All was well again in her world.
I spent the rest of the day beating myself up for being so careless and letting my precious daughter get hurt. Then a friend said this, which snapped me back into reality and made my day okay again…. “you aren’t going to be able to stop every booboo before it happens but you’ll always be there for the hugs and kisses”.
I think you are being way too hard on yourself. It isn’t like you cut her on purpose. You didn’t leave the razor down just so she would find it. You didn’t leave the bathroom door open on purpose. There are some things that you cannot help as a parent. Sometimes you forget. Accidents happen. This was just that. An accident. You need to forgive yourself and know that she never held it against you in the first place. *hugs*
You are being way too hard on yourself. Sarah is exactly right in everything that she said in her comment to you.
Don’t beat yourself up any more. She’s not seriously injured, she survived, and she got lots of attention from you. Believe me, she’s not going to suffer because she got cut on a razor.
You’re a great mom, and we all have days like that. It’s part of being a mom. (And a mom with pregnancy brain is just that much harder!) ;)
The same thing happened to me! It was the day of my daughter’s 1st birthday party and I was trying to jump in the shower and bath her at the same time. I didn’t see that I dropped a razor in the bottom on the tub and she picked it up and cut her little finger. It would not stop bleeding and I felt TERRIBLE! Accidents do happen, although I probably shouldn’t have been trying to rush to bathe her and myself at the same time!
Seeing our kids get hurt is never easy and as much as we try not always will we be able to stop accidents and protect them.You know that, it’s just the way it is. They won’t feel better or more protected if we as Moms blame ourselves, even though we do it every time!
I watched my 4 year old baby girl running in the dry-way and basically flying than hitting the ground with her little hands and knees. I was so close to her yet so far away and for days I was thinking how stupid and slow I was. If I just run a little faster I could of caught her. She still has traces on her knees where the awful bloody scrapes were.
It makes us always question ourselves as Moms, but don’t forget we are just humans and doing best we can, in my opinion the hardest job there is (even though my relatives wouldn’t agree LOL)
OK I officially can’t spell LOL I meant driveway :)
Accidents happen- Its normal to feel guilty but you cannot be watching them every second of everyday!!
The worst thing is realizing that accidents happen then have your MIL or husband make you feel more guilt by telling you that you have to watch your kids more! grrr!!